fuck life

ignoring me makes it better doesnt it?
asshole.

i want to get over this bad part in my life.
these bad times happen, and i know it.
but its been bad for about 6 months.
and he is making it so much worse.
acting like he doesnt give a shit about me.
he makes me feel like shit.

my family owes $10,000 to the government because we made more then we thought.
how does that even happen?
just because we make alot doesnt mean we have to pay all this fucking money.
we earned it, right?
ugh.

i wish she would just let me in.
i want to help her so badly.
she doesnt know how much she means to me.
but i know she wants space.
just wish i could give her a hug.

school is getting harder....which is werid.
and im totally getting seinoritis.
plus in like all my classes, im completely ignored.
im invisible, people bump into me and dont even say sorry, like i was a wall or something.

i want to move away next year, just slip away from all these people.
but i dont have any money, and its hard to find a job.
i want to find myself and relize that high school was just a shitty time.
i want to forget the goood times for awhile, and just remeber why it sucked so itll be easier to move on.
espically with him. all i can think about is the amazing times i had with him.
it was two years of my life, which isnt alot, but right now it is.
and now he doesnt care.
god it hurts.